The Many Faces of Kellie

I love when people (or questionnaires) ask me about my hobbies and interests. Have you ever sat and thought about the things in life that you really enjoy? Have you ever considered how wide the hobby and interest spectrum spreads?

Some days I am a fashionista. I love playing fashion design games (Covet for both iOS and Android), reading fashion blogs and magazines, and styling outfits.

Some days I am a hardcore gamer. I use the term “hardcore” loosely because I certainly do not put the hours into my game time like I use to. Maybe an hour or so here and there depending on my current mood. However, my interest for games is just as extensive as my general hobby list. MMOs and MOBAs are becoming my favorite, though.

Some days I am a chef. Whether it’s baking, cooking a simple dinner, or creating something new and inventive, it’s another form of art that I have come to love!

Some days I am an organizer. This isn’t often, but when I fall into that role, I’m pretty good at it!

Some days I’m a crafter. Who would have thought that I would come to love crocheting as much as I do?

Some days I am a photographer. Nature pictures or abstract shots. Those are my favorite things to photograph and those are what I enjoy sharing with others when I capture fun shots.

Regardless of which face or hat I’m wearing, the most important thing is that I am always me. Staying true to who you are and being happy with yourself are two very important things that we need to do. Look at yourself in the mirror, smile at yourself, hug yourself, and tell yourself that you are beautiful. You are amazing. You can do anything and you can be anything.

Remember that no matter which role you are filling today, you are a queen and a beautiful human being.

It’s Time to Spring Forward!

This is my own gentle reminder that tonight I need to turn the clocks forward one hour. Don’t forget!

In other news, it’s been far too long since I’ve written a blog post. Shame on me! I have a good reason, though.

Things have been pretty hectic for me on an emotional level, but I am doing a lot to get myself in a good place. It’s important to remember that these things are not immediate. It is a journey and one that will have plenty of ups and downs.

I have had a lot of downs with the onslaught of cold weather. I am ready for winter to be over with!

To try and conquer the winter blues, I have been trying to do some crafts and healthy living. I recently joined Nerd Fitness, which has been such a blessing. Imagine a place where the nerds and geeks of the world gather to support others in their quests for better living, health, and exercise. It’s fantastic! I’m currently working on my first 6 Week Challenge and it’s going very well thus far.

I’ve finally gotten back into crocheting, which has been fabulous! I’m working on a “skinny scarf” in a collection of absolutely gorgeous colors. Photos will be forthcoming!

So, in lieu of this dreary weather, try and keep your head up. Embrace your roadblocks, allow yourself the time to get your emotions out, and let it strengthen you.

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For 40 Days and 40 Nights

Wednesday began the tradition of Lent.

Since I can remember, I always made an effort to give up something for the tradition and not eat meat on Friday’s. While I have not been to church in quite some time, I remain spiritual.

Religion is not what this post is about, though!

This is about what I am choosing to do for Lent.

Rather than give up something, I have decided to make better what God has given me. That means, taking care of myself and giving myself a better image.

Eating better, not slumming around in pajamas all day, being more active, sparking creativity, challenging myself, and making that climb to a happier and healthier Kellie.

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Here are my steps to getting back on track!

1. Clean eating – This is not as difficult as it sounds. After doing some quick reading, I realized that most of the time, we are already doing this as a family. Now it’s just a matter of being more portion-conscious.

2. Breakfast – I’m really terrible at this. I was making smoothies almost every day and when I was, I was feeling better. This is something I want to get back into doing. They were delicious, filling, and gave me that boost that breakfast gives to you.

3. Drink More Water – I’m pretty good at this, but I could be doing better.

4. A Power Hour – I’m usually getting up with my little brother in the morning, and for a while, I was getting up at 7:00 AM to have coffee and me time before the hustle and bustle of getting off to school started. I need to get back into doing this.

5. Dress With a Smile – It’s important to fill every day with positivity. Smile when you wake up. Tell yourself that you’re beautiful and worth it. Remind yourself that you matter and that people love you.

Keep at it and don’t get discouraged. Everything takes work and if you’re willing to put in the time, the results will be amazing!

When the Fog Finally Lifts

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It’s such a strange feeling. Like walking through a thick fog that is choking the very light out of the world. You can barely see the path before you, but you know it’s there. You still stumble, though you never completely fall. The way out is close, but it seems so far away. Everything seems so far out of your reach. You know once the fog clears that you’ll be able to find the right path. Everything will be alright, but you just need to get there.

That is always the most difficult part. It is even more difficult to explain it to others who may not understand.

This is where I was yesterday. From the moment I woke up to the second I fell asleep, I was stuck in this place. Today, I left that place behind.

Depression and anxiety are different for everyone. Sometimes it is not like this for me. Sometimes it is. I think that is what makes it worse to try and explain how you’re feeling. At times, it’s a dark and damp place filled with fog. Other times, it’s maddening. Yesterday was foggy and muddy, and kept me weighed down for far too long.

I much prefer today feeling bright and content.

Some might wonder why I wrote something like this here where I have been advocating positive living. I believe that in order to be happy, you should be able to discuss the things that effect that feeling. Pinpoint the moments when you are not feeling like yourself and write about it. More often than not, I keep things to myself. I keep them tight lipped until they finally explode at a later time; a time when the smallest thing will set you off. Address the feelings now. Even if it’s not with spoken word, write it down. I believe people worry that others will not understand why they are feeling this way. They won’t, but that doesn’t mean that no one will.

Keep Going

By now, there are probably a lot of people who have given up on their New Year’s resolutions for a variety of reasons. I am one of those people who, in the past, would have just thrown in the towel.

Not this year.

With the month half over, I have only started to conquer a quarter of the things I wanted to really delve into this year. That’s okay! Even if the year was half over, I believe you should never feel that it’s too late to start. It’s only too late to start if you don’t do it at all.

I’m staying positive and I’m going to continue to tell myself that I can do it.

“It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.” – Confucius

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!

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Have you ever had one of those days when you wake up and everything clicks? You feel motivated, determined, and you want to accomplish things that you’ve been telling yourself to do for years.

I had that feeling this morning.

It was a sluggish morning since insomnia continues to rear it’s ugly head. When you don’t fall asleep until almost 4 AM, 7 AM comes entirely too early. Nevertheless, I rolled out of bed (albeit at 7:15) to get my step-brother up and off to school.

9 AM and all was quite in the house. Don’t get me wrong! I love my family, but I understand why my Mom loves those moments of peace and quiet. I made myself some coffee and proceeded to clean-up the DVR of my various ghost hunting shows. This morning it was an episode of Ghost Adventures. While I sat sipping my coffee and playing Candy Crush, I was also watching it snow. I don’t know why snowfall suddenly made me think about finally coming to terms with my adulthood, but it did.

It’s a scary thought when you take the time to really think on it. Too much of it has to be bad for your health.

Whatever it was in the falling snow, though, triggered something in my conscious. Or maybe it was my subconscious? Either way, rather than just saying that I’m going to make this year my year, I’m going to do it. For far too long I’ve said I’m going to do this and eventually do that. What do I have standing in my way? Nothing but myself.

Now is the time to stop being afraid and do it. Have fun and laugh! Enjoy life and love what has been given to you. No one can live your life for you, so unless you do it, no one will.